I don't know how, but something has changed fast.
Previously...
Things are plodding along for a while, little things building up at the back of your mind, and then suddenly something big and bad happens. You go through this horrible time and it genuinely feels like the be all and end all. You react like a crazy person; you do things you will undoubtedly regret and cringe at in the future. But you do it anyway because it makes you feel better for a minute at that the time and that minute feels like temporary relief. Then you feel doubly horrendous for not coping with the horrible situation in a dignified manner. But eventually, you realise that you are only human: you have to make exceptions: you were not yourself. You start to morph back into the original 'you'. Once again, you can think clearly before you act, and you understand your own emotions. You begin to see possibilities, instead of that dark abyss.
When that day comes, I'm willing to bet that it's sunny outside. Jetted blue sky, balmy air, smell-of-suncream - the real thing. Summertime.
On this day, you may do a number of things:
Listen to music, for one. Undemanding, uplifting music. Ukeleles are very welcome.
Take photographs of everything pretty and everything not. Even regular stuff is rendered beautiful in the sunshine.
Pull on a pair of shorts and confidently leave the house with short sleeves. Realise that showing neck-nape is effortlessly cute and decide to get your hair cut short and tousled.
Read the most unchallenging book you can find. It must defy academia. Beach huts in pastel shades on the front cover, most likely. Every chapter laden with soppy scandals that keep you glued to your garden chair until your face is freckled.
Make one of those incredibly lazy lunches that can only be achieved and enjoyed on sunny days. Hunks of bread, mustard, corned beef, sundried tomatoes, rocket salad, parmesan. Long glass of fruit squash.
After lunchtime, consider the remains of the day. The whole afternoon lies before you. Get out your recipe books and choose something to make, to cook, to bake. Take all the time that you need to leisurely create.
As you have probably guessed, I recently encountered such a day. Either that, or I have far too much time to sit and conjour up how that would really be.
On said day, I made chocolate cupcakes filled with raspberry cream and drizzled with a white chocolate web. They were adorable to look at and far too easy to eat. Recipe coming soon!
: )